News of the week...
An officer showed up at the door yesterday, delivering court papers. The plumber is suing us for the remainder of the bill. Rick is still unemployed and I work about 8 hours a week at $6 an hour. It’s not like we wouldn’t pay it if we had the money.
Life makes it really hard to stay positive sometimes, ya know?(Just trying to keep Romans 8:28 in mind, and keep pmy pride in check... too much pride runs on my family, like cancer, and I am constantly fighting it...My first reaction when recieving the papers was embarrasment, and then anger that Rick still doesn't have a job - that makes it all his fault, you know.... LOL..)
I haven’t really been in the mood to talk lately; I just don’t seem to have anything to write about. There is nothing going on here but the usual housework, laundry, dishes, Rick’s odd jobs, and the three of us going fishing every few days. Oh, the bird laid another egg… That makes 5 she is sitting on, but I think there is only one that is fertilized; the others were laid after I moved the male to another cage… I will wait 22 days after the last one was laid and then get rid of any of them that didn’t hatch.
We had tons of rain last night; wave after wave of thunderstorms went through the area. I haven’t heard how much we got. Chance of getting more this afternoon and evening, but I hope not, we want to go fishing again. Beats sitting at home every evening… Night before last I was really wishing we had a camera, the sunset across the lake (pond) was beautiful… with lightning to the south and north, we were in a partially cloudy area and the sun was turning the clouds pink and orange and purple as it went down… The colors were all reflected off the water, which was almost completely still, as the wind had died down for about half an hour before picking up again from another direction. It was beautiful.
Life makes it really hard to stay positive sometimes, ya know?(Just trying to keep Romans 8:28 in mind, and keep pmy pride in check... too much pride runs on my family, like cancer, and I am constantly fighting it...My first reaction when recieving the papers was embarrasment, and then anger that Rick still doesn't have a job - that makes it all his fault, you know.... LOL..)
I haven’t really been in the mood to talk lately; I just don’t seem to have anything to write about. There is nothing going on here but the usual housework, laundry, dishes, Rick’s odd jobs, and the three of us going fishing every few days. Oh, the bird laid another egg… That makes 5 she is sitting on, but I think there is only one that is fertilized; the others were laid after I moved the male to another cage… I will wait 22 days after the last one was laid and then get rid of any of them that didn’t hatch.
We had tons of rain last night; wave after wave of thunderstorms went through the area. I haven’t heard how much we got. Chance of getting more this afternoon and evening, but I hope not, we want to go fishing again. Beats sitting at home every evening… Night before last I was really wishing we had a camera, the sunset across the lake (pond) was beautiful… with lightning to the south and north, we were in a partially cloudy area and the sun was turning the clouds pink and orange and purple as it went down… The colors were all reflected off the water, which was almost completely still, as the wind had died down for about half an hour before picking up again from another direction. It was beautiful.
posted by Amethyst Rising at 2:13 PM
4 Comments:
I'm sorry about the plumber. I hope it works itself out soon.
As to the eggs, you most likely won't have to do anything, the birds and nature will take care of any that are not going to hatch.
How blessed you are to be enjoying sunsets like that. Keep enjoying that gift :)
magdala~
You know, the court papers are just a business transaction. No one is mad at you guys, I'm sure. The plumber just wants the money owed. It's all just business. The court will work it out when you get there, you state where you're at and they'll make a decision based on everyone involved, and that will be that.
I can understand the frustration and the anger. I hate feeling that way. But when we break down that feeling, it's what's hiding beneath it that I think we need to touch on and find out what the real emotion is.
For me, when I get embarrassed, I nowadays try to break down that embarrassment... really FEEL it... and I usually find that what I'm really feeling is fear. Fear of being hated, fear of others looking at me and being disgusted for what I did to be embarrassed about. Fear of what others think of me.
Only then, can I start working out my own emotion and walking beyond it because what others think of me will have no consequence on my own life other than what I make of it. On my deathbed, the last thing I will be wondering is what others thought of me.
And when I feel angry with my wife for something, I try nowadays to see what is behind the anger. Why am I angry? Not because of something she did or hasn't done, but because I usually am afraid of my nice little life being torn apart by something, and she's not helping me. It's kind of a selfish thought, and I try not to think that way anymore as a result of getting to the real emotion behind the mask of embarrassment or anger.
Love, Jas...
Magdala!! So wonderful to see you... I just read on the Cockateil website that I would need to remove them if they didn't hatch, but if you say I won't need to, them I'lll just let the birds take care of them!
Thanks Jas... I do know all this, in my head, I really do...
I just grew up in a family where bills were paid, and no one was ever unemployed, and rick's family was just the opposite - Rick has lived this way all his life, and it just frustrates me, that's all... Our whole life together has been this way - going a year without a refrigerator, or a year without a stove - this is not the first time he has gone for a whole year without a job - I just don't want to live this way, but if I'm going to be doing it all on my own, why should I not be doing it all "on my own"? I didn't marry him for his money, because he has never had any, but I didn't take him on th raise, either.... *sigh*
Blessings.
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