Warning: Insane ramblings ahead - proceed at your own risk
I know. Three posts in one day? I have WAY too much time on my hands. Which is the reason, I think, for this post.
I think I am really losing it. I am slowly coming unwound.
I sit in this house, day after day, dishes, laundry, zookeeper. Watching lots of mindless tv, reading books that I couldn't even tell you the plot of, doing needlework. I am going crazy.
I do leave the house once a day, to pick up my son. But I never get out of the pick up.
I took R to work at 4 am this morning, and went to Wal Mart while I was in town. I talked to the clerk. Woo.
I just don't have enough to keep me busy, I guess. It doesn't help that my mind is working overtime.
When a relationship breaks up, time is supposed to ease the pain, right? Mine is getting worse.
I think maybe I should give this up. Stay away from the computer completely. I can't get on this and not read his blog, but it kills me to read it.
Maybe I just need to get away from the computer all together. Reading other people's blogs as my only form of socializing is not healthy, is it? Now that R is working out of town, I don't even have him to talk to.
I am slowly coming from together.
I think I am really losing it. I am slowly coming unwound.
I sit in this house, day after day, dishes, laundry, zookeeper. Watching lots of mindless tv, reading books that I couldn't even tell you the plot of, doing needlework. I am going crazy.
I do leave the house once a day, to pick up my son. But I never get out of the pick up.
I took R to work at 4 am this morning, and went to Wal Mart while I was in town. I talked to the clerk. Woo.
I just don't have enough to keep me busy, I guess. It doesn't help that my mind is working overtime.
When a relationship breaks up, time is supposed to ease the pain, right? Mine is getting worse.
I think maybe I should give this up. Stay away from the computer completely. I can't get on this and not read his blog, but it kills me to read it.
Maybe I just need to get away from the computer all together. Reading other people's blogs as my only form of socializing is not healthy, is it? Now that R is working out of town, I don't even have him to talk to.
I am slowly coming from together.
posted by Amethyst Rising at 2:08 PM
4 Comments:
We don't have ducks in hick county.
It's too cold for park benches or long walks.
Oh well.
Long hours of staring at television will have to be enough.
Thanks anyway.
You've been out of work for 2 or 3 weeks now??...think about this...out of work for 5 years; staring at 4 walls everyday; computer friends and call buddies are as good as it gets; and no child at home to nurture--eventually doing the dishes and laundry are exciting AND taking the dog out to piss is almost more than I can handle!!! Feel better??lol
I guess so.
It's not being out of work that bothers me, it's having all this time to think about things. I have always thought too much, and having all this time makes it worse. Living in my mother's back bedroom doesn't help.
Some sort of income would be nice, too!
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