I think SchlepRock is in my family tree....
I can't figure it out.
I think the universe is trying to tell me something, but what?
Why can't the powers that be ever just come right out and say "Hey! Stupid! Do it this way!"
First I lost the love of my life.
Now my job.
I feel like locking my son in his room forever... He is all I have left.
I think I must have been in shock last night.
The depression is setting in today.
I didn't go job hunting, I am waiting until I get my check tomorrow because I only have a half a tank of gas.
I was out earlier, and I couldn't even drive by the store. I am so embarrassed. I hated to even go in the grocery store, I felt like such a low life. Homeless, jobless... What a loser!
*sigh* I know ya'll are going to disagree with me, but I can't change my feelings...
I feel so.... Lost...
I think the universe is trying to tell me something, but what?
Why can't the powers that be ever just come right out and say "Hey! Stupid! Do it this way!"
First I lost the love of my life.
Now my job.
I feel like locking my son in his room forever... He is all I have left.
I think I must have been in shock last night.
The depression is setting in today.
I didn't go job hunting, I am waiting until I get my check tomorrow because I only have a half a tank of gas.
I was out earlier, and I couldn't even drive by the store. I am so embarrassed. I hated to even go in the grocery store, I felt like such a low life. Homeless, jobless... What a loser!
*sigh* I know ya'll are going to disagree with me, but I can't change my feelings...
I feel so.... Lost...
posted by Amethyst Rising at 12:46 PM
6 Comments:
Amethyst, no you can't change your feelings, they're still "fresh"; but they will change in time.
As far as ashamed--the law that got you fired is ludicrous--you did nothing morally or ethically wrong. You went to work and you worked hard--I guarantee you they'll miss you there.
Being lost is real; at least it's real for the person that is wandering--your feelings are valid to you and no one has the right to discredit the way you feel. I often wonder just where it is I'm going--it's so disheartening to me to be clueless...
I am so used to being able to see where I'm going... Clueless is not something I have much experience with, I haven't always liked where my life was at, or where it was going, but at least I knew where I stood...
Clueless effing sucks; and it gets old QUICK!! I'm sorry but I don't have the answers; I'm clueless too for the first time in my life. sigh~~
Guess we can at least be clueless together... LOL
Ahhh yes--misery loves company--I know I do...hang in there!
Hey, girl. I am so sorry to hear about your current situation. Especially with the holidays coming up, etc. Please please please promise me you will apply for unemployment right away! Not a lot, but will tide you over some while you look for your next opportunity.
Good God do I know the darkening, world-shrinking realm of depression and I know how paralyzing that can be. Is there a glimmer there, a voice there, anything that dares you to find and nurture your dreams? One day at a time, dear. As you know, this shall pass . . .
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