Venting? Whining? I don't know what I am feeling....
I hate the blog world on weekends... It feels so deserted... Tumble weeds blowing down the streets... Vultures in the trees....
I don't seem to have a life outside this blog and my work... And I am beginning to hate my work... Life is not at a good place at this time...
I have to go to the hospital on Tuesday... I found a lump under my arm, and my doctor has scheduled me for a mamogram and sonogram... I am sure it's nothing, but...
Wednesday my company is sending me to work in another store (again) in a town half the size of Hooterville, working the shift I hate (3-11pm)
I haven't heard from 'the blogger formerly known as Sir' for a couple of days... I miss him...
I am just struggling right now to find the path through this, these are all spots on the map, links in a chain, leading me somewhere.... I know that.... I just wish I could see the next part of the path...
I think I tend to hurt people who come to care about me because I don't seem to be 'static', I am still changing so much, I don't seem to stay in one place in my life long before my path leads me on... Even when I long to stay.....
So many things roaming around in my head... I feel really alone this evening...
I don't seem to have a life outside this blog and my work... And I am beginning to hate my work... Life is not at a good place at this time...
I have to go to the hospital on Tuesday... I found a lump under my arm, and my doctor has scheduled me for a mamogram and sonogram... I am sure it's nothing, but...
Wednesday my company is sending me to work in another store (again) in a town half the size of Hooterville, working the shift I hate (3-11pm)
I haven't heard from 'the blogger formerly known as Sir' for a couple of days... I miss him...
I am just struggling right now to find the path through this, these are all spots on the map, links in a chain, leading me somewhere.... I know that.... I just wish I could see the next part of the path...
I think I tend to hurt people who come to care about me because I don't seem to be 'static', I am still changing so much, I don't seem to stay in one place in my life long before my path leads me on... Even when I long to stay.....
So many things roaming around in my head... I feel really alone this evening...
posted by Amethyst Rising at 5:17 PM
4 Comments:
You're not alone, Amethyst. Hang in there. . .
hugs to you...
wishing you -
peace...
Everytime I read "the blogger formerly known as "Sir"", it makes me think of "the Artist formerly known as Prince"; and then I start singing Lil Red Corvette--gawd I love that song!!! (found your blog thru Jason--you know, that transplanted Okie we all love and adore!!)
That is where I got the idea.. Not sure what else to call him now... Although several people have figured out who he is...
Jason's is one of my favorite blogs...
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